When I was a child I used to role play with my friends, and I would always be the same Character: Alley. Then as I grew up Alley never left me. Instead when alone I became her. I created this whole world in my head where Alley had friends, partners, children, family. etc. But this world is still with me even though I'm in my 20s. I'll be walking to work and in my head talking to someone from this world, and sometimes I catch myself moving my lips as I talk (I must look insain to people passing by). When home alone I'll talk out loud and act out whats happening.
I've tried to get rid of Alley and her world many times. I once succeeded for a few months but then it all found a way of getting back in my head. I'm just sick of living half my life in the head of this imaginary person.
Any idea's on how I can block it all out without going to therapy? And for that matter, what it actually means?