| | do i have a mental problem?
When I was young I was mentally and physically abused by my parents they would hit me, kick me, throw me out, embarrass me etc.
Now that I am older, it feels as if in not like other people, like people always say I have a split personality, sometimes I'm crazy, wild and hyper and other times I'm in the verge of suicide thinking of ways I could die.
I also have bad hallucinations, I will imagine things that aren't there, it makes me feel not well at all. I will see a man, he doesn't talk and I will occasionally see other people that aren't there well other people can't see them. I also see random things like yesterday I saw a black butterfly on my work.
As a child I never wanted to be around people, is been hurt so much by my own parents that I didn't love nobody. I still don't. I haven't been on a date with anyone in years, people ask me out but I'm to scared, I always feel as if there joking or that they will hurt me. I have NEVER trusted anyone and probably never will. Please help, thanks...