mongold10

I can say that I don't really know where to start. There is something wrong with me but I do not know what it is. I am very fast to change moods, I mean fast. My husband is fed up with me, my kids do not know how to act because they don't know who i am going to be. i found this site because I looked up the key words I need a friend. i don't have any family, that is another story in itself. I have my husband and my kids. No friends. No one to talk to. I seen information about BPD, I think that may be what I have. I have a doctors appt in a few weeks, but everytime I go there I only feel like I am being judged and that i have to watch what I say for fear that they will put me away. I feel very alone and lost in my life, I wonder why I am here.