| | worried about grandmother & myself
Hi, I'm new here.
I'm 37, live with and stay home to help my 86 year old grandmother. In the past year and a half we have had at least 5 close family deaths and have heard about several disasters on tv (tsunami / nuclear plant situations in Japan and the US, tornadoes, oil spill in the gulf, etc.) and it has been very stressful. I discovered that my grandmother had been staying up for hours at night reading religious books and hearing news on the radio. After several days of not sleeping, my grandmother became very emotional, crying, talking loudly all night, not making sense and connecting Bible references to everything. I couldn't get her to calm down, so I had to take her to the ER. She was hospitalized for a week and given antipsychotic meds and changed her high blood pressure medication. I asked the doctor to take her off Haldol which caused her to have head nodding and shaking hands. She had many tests but no stroke, tumor, Alzheimers or dementia was diagnosed. In January of this year, she had another episode very similar, except this time she started screaming for no reason, and I had to take her again to the ER and she was hospitalized for another week. She had more tests and nothing was found. Her meds were changed again and she is now on Diltiazem, Lasix and half of 25mg Seroquel at night to help her sleep. She has been on these meds for 3 months and has had blurry vision, slight head nodding and I have noticed an increase of mouth movement and noise. Its hard to tell if this is involuntary (signs of TD). I have terrible anxiety and feel that I need to watch over her constantly and hate to leave her alone very long. I don't have any family or friends close enough to help and I am very burned out. My grandmother hates being monitored but I worry when she reads or watches news that something will upset her again. She gets angry if I try to distract her, because she has always been an environmental activist, and news of man made disasters (nuclear, chemical) make her want to write letters and protest. I have driving anxiety and she never had a license so we stay at home a lot. We often get in arguments so time at home can be tense. I am constantly in fear that she will have a serious side effect to medicine or heart problem, and my anxiety gets so bad that I tremble and find it hard to eat. When my grandma sees me upset, she worries about me too. I am considering asking the doctor to take her off Seroquel and also worry about withdrawals, even though it is a low dose.
Sorry this is so long. I just needed to vent. Any help is appreciated.