Which mental disorder(s) do I have?
I'm 16 years old and for the passed year or two, I've realized that I'm not as normal as I use to be. I worry a lot. If my mom or my dad is gone and they are late coming home, I'll immediately start panicking. I get worried when I have to talk in front of the class, if I have to go somewhere where there's people I don't know (especially if there's going to be no one there that I'm friends with). I'm worried about my future and I'm scared of being alone in the world. Basically, I'm a worrier. Also, my dad is an alcoholic and I think that's what started my anxiety problems in the first place though I wasn't aware of it. I'm not very confident, I have low self esteem. I would rather stay in than go out somewhere. I've put on a lot of weight in the passed year and I have a lot of problems when it comes to getting dressed, I never know what to wear because I always feel like people are going to be looking at me and judging me. I am different than a lot of people who go to my school. I like music that no one else listens to, I'm very friendly (maybe too friendly). I often think that there's no one around here who is like me and that I don't belong here. I always feel down and tired. I've been obsessed with bands or a certain celebrity since I was 8 years old. This has led me to have Maladaptive Daydreaming which I've been doing since I was 8. I could daydream excessively for hours. I've daydreamed a whole other life in my head. I'm a very quiet and shy person. I often feel annoyed and aggravated after people because of the way humanity is these days. Sometimes I wish I could escape this life because I don't like it. Most of the time I feel sad and I think that maybe if I lived somewhere else it would be different. I am an only child so I'm alone a lot. I think all of the time. I'm always thinking about something. I don't sleep good at night and I'm often tired. I have occasional mood swings. Sometimes I'll be happy and then I'll be sad again, and I'll cry for no reason.
I know that it's kind of all disorganized but that is pretty much it in a nutshell.