This is more psychological than general health...
Alright, where to begin.
I am 20 years old and for as long as I can remember, I like being on my own.
I am not shy and I don't get nervous around people, I just generally don't like to be around them.
I am an introvert.
I also have to fake my emotions almost all of the time.
I wouldn't describe it as feeling numb.
I am devoid of emotion.
My mom tells me all the time to act more human.
I have no sympathy or empathy for others and I don't care about anything anyone else does or says.
Believe me, I'm NOT depressed.
I can go days without talking.
If I were the last person on the planet, I wouldn't mind.
I actually find other people incredibly irritating.
I am also extremely obsessive compulsive.
I have daily routines.
If I don't do my routines, or if they are altered in someway, I get very agitated.
I also have a hard time keeping relationships with people.
I don't like to talk very much, as I said, and I've been told that is socially awkward.
I don't intentionally ruin relationships.
I just don't see the point in having them.
I also was an outcast in high school because I don't get peer pressure.
I only do what I want to do.
Why do people compromise themselves for the sake of fitting in?
I don't know. It baffles me.
And lastly, I am incredibly paranoid.
When people whisper around me, I think they are talking about me.
I sleep with a bat next to my bed because I think someone will break in.
I also constantly watch cars that drive behind me because I think they are following me.
Other than the paranoia, I am content with my life the way it is, but other people don't seem to be.
I am intelligent enough to notice how unbelievably different I am from everyone I know.
I was just wondering if there is some kind of explanation for the way I am.
Last edited by bronzehallow; 07-21-2012 at 12:43 AM.