i never used this site before so i am kind of nervous doing this and hope not to be judged. i have been diagnosed with clinical depression, ptsd, and borderline biploar in the past. and im talking since i was 12 and i am 25 now. i do not currently see anyone as i lost my health insurance for a few years and i am getting it back soon and plan on seeing someone. but my issue is i get very angry all the time never violent but yell and such. i have very little high times and alot of down times. i want something to make me happy liek i should be as i have 4 kids under 5 and a good husband. im so paranoid that hes a cheater maybe i have a few reasons to be but not sure if i go overboard on accusing its hurting myself and marriage but mainly the anger does that. i cant show affection never have been able to really fully do that and im not sure how to even begin. i yell at one of my kids all the time and i have pushed him away and he is only 2. i feel so bad and try to correct it but its so hard i try and try but my anger keeps coming out. what do you think would be a good way to approach the doc. or what do you think they would put me on if there is any of you going throu the same thing as me?
am i alone? 
