I am a mother of 2 kids 7 and 3. I stay at home with the youngest while the other one is in school. I am married to a wonderful husband who is home for dinner everyday and allows me to do the things I want to without question.
I just feel lost as a mother and as a person lately. I yell all the time and get mad at all of the little things that happen. I am not happy lately, I feel like my friends don't have time or me sometimes when I need them.
I have been at home for about 3.5 years and I hated my previous job so I was happy not to go back but I think I was used to that and now I am at home all day cooking, cleaning and doing laundry. I feel like I have lost myself by being here for my kids. Especially in the last few days I just feel like a terrible mother and person, I'm disappointed in the way I have been and I don't know where to start to get out of this rut.
I did used to have anxiety back when I was 19 (11 years ago). I know I should probably see someone about these things but it's hard to actually take that step. I just don't want to be this way anymore. I want to be the best person I can be.
Re: Feel angry, irritated and disappointed in myself
I think talking to someone would be an excellent first step to getting out of the rut you're in. I think it's possible you may be setting too high of expectations for yourself or maybe there are some changes you can make that you may have overlooked or discounted. Either way I think talking to someone could really improve your quality of life.