Galvanise

For as long as i can remember i've had a very very overactive brain and its cost me my social life as i cannot for the life of me control my thoughts i cant keep eye contact because within a second im switched off and gone into another world no matter how hard i try. i have to constantly move and bounce my legs i feel like im racing at a hundreds miles an hour and when i create scenarios in my head ( which is pretty much all the time.. my mouth talks silently copying what im saying in my head and when i come back around i just sit there thinking did i seriouusly do that ?! )

with all this going on i can still faintly hear a thousands thoughts going on... while most are sort of... unheard in the back of my head its like being in a room with hundred of people talking, i dont feel like theyre voices talking to me if i try to randomly zone into them theyre just COMPLETELY random conversations, such as the other day i had a conversation between two men talking about mc donalds and then two people talking about their cars and then i just had a running dialouge of random stuff in my life. Just seems i can unhear them if i chose to but they still go on in the back of my mind and this is why im scared to get help because im worried im going to be told i have something seriously wrong with me and id rather go on about my life not knowing i have a serious issue. All i do know is my mums and my grandmother have very very serious anxiety as i do but i feel this isnt due to that ? I guess the reason i posted here is for opinions on wether it is serious or if its just something that isnt serious. However please dont post below saying just go see someone because i want to but when it comes to making the call to the doctors or going there i just cant my anxiety kicks in and its just not going to happen unless i get some assurance that it is just anxiety but i feel it cant just be anxiety causing this?