Mental disorder, possibly bipolar?
I have 2 kids, 7yrs and 2yrs. I have always, my whole life, been somewhat of an angry person. I never really showed it until I had my kids. After my 7yr old, things started going downhill. But after my 2yr old was born, I started having times where I lost my mind. I would scream at my daughter for every tiny thing. And I would yell at her really loud. Lately, I have taken to calling her names, like brat and things like that. Nothing too bad. And I have been having thoughts of wishing I never had kids or got married or anything. Wishing I was single. I love my kids with everything in me, and would never hurt them. Just, at times I would love to go back in time and change things. I'm thinking I have bipolar possibly, because there are times where I love to play with my kids, cuddle with them, etc.
I'm just so confused. My husband says he hates the way I am, and I would love to change, I just don't know what to do.