Is there something wrong with me?
Well ever since one of my early boyfriends, has left me, i've been acting really strange. And i actually enjoy hurting guys now, i mean ever since he has actually left me (and according from a few other sources, he cheated on me) he was honestly the only one person who i really loved, and i was so ready to give him my heart. We've all experienced this right? So no one can really say any different, i don't know if this is traumatic stress or if it's a mental health problem but ever since, i've tried moving on -coincidentally these things happened 3 years ago, and they're still effecting me- but every time, i manage to get a new boyfriend, and they confess to me, i get this feeling of like, pride and happiness. Now i'm sure every girl gets that, but once i get this feeling, i almost feel evil, because another guy confesses and i flirt with both until my feelings for them have recoiled and turned away. This might just me being a jerk, i don't know, but i can't stop myself from doing this, and i doubt it, because i have alot of guy-friends, and they all know that i'm trust-worthy and i'm one of the nicest people apparently that they know. It's happening right this second, and i don't think maturity is a part of this, because as far as i'm concerned, i'm very mature, and i don't consider myself to "fling" myself infront of a boy. I actually wait until the end up with me, i don't know what's wrong with me, i just want to fall in love normally, usually if i date a guy, i end up flirting with someone else and just loose feelings for the person i'm dating alltogether. Another personal trait is that i dislike to end relationships, i don't know what it is, but i find it very hard to end relationships. So would someone please explain what it is that is wrong with me? And i must know, how to avoid doing this in the future.