I'd rather talk to my imaginary friends than my real ones... ?
So... This is my first post. I've been having some issues (I think ?) and I find that I'd be really embarrassed to talk to anyone I know about this. Ever since I can remember, I've talked to imaginary people. I guess imaginary isn't the best word though; I always "talk" to real people, ones I know, they just aren't actually there. I never speak to them out loud, it's like lip synching. Over the summer, I'd be home alone from the time I woke up (around 8/9) till 4, and I would literally do this all day. I've read that this isn't really abnormal or anything, unless it got in the way of my real life... Well.. It has, i think. O.o
I don't really go out much. I don't have a lot of friends. As far as I know, I'm not considered an outcast or anything, I just talk to a small group of people. But recently I've noticed that I'd rather talk to the imaginary versions of people than the real ones. Part of me kind of thinks it's because I don't want to say the wrong thing; if I'm talking to a real person and things get awkward or I say something and they react negatively, my mood changes dramatically. I'll either get severely depressed or extremely agitated/irritable, or both. When I talk to imaginary people, I can never say the wrong thing, because I get to control the whole situation and everyone's reactions. I've also started ignoring real people. But not at school or when I'm physically with people, it's just if I get a text or whatever. I won't respond, and I don't really think much about. Some people have told me they want to talk to me and get upset when I just stop answering. But it's like I don't care, or don't think about the repercussions. I just want to be a normal teenager. ): Can anyone explain to me why this is happening, how to fix it, and/or if someone has the same thing ?