Struggling - Miscarriage & Still Birth Message Board

ASDGRMama · 04-17-2005, 09:12 PM

My baby (a boy: Asher Nathaniel) died around 17 weeks in November. I was due April 8th. I had a miscarriage (6 weeks) April 9th, the day after my due date and my SIL who was due April 19th had her baby on the 12th (a boy: Andrew).

I just got back from a family gathering and held Andrew for quite some time. I just ache. What I wouldn't give to be tucking in my precious baby boy next to me and nursing him to sleep right now. Or even walking the floor with him at 2am.

My heart is so heavy. I wanted her desperately to have a girl so I wouldn't have to watch her son grow up knowing that my little boy would be the same age doing the same things. They would have been good buddies; Asher and Andrew.

I'm just very sad today.

Love and Prayers, Kelly

brixylake · 04-18-2005, 04:35 PM

I can't even imagine how hard that is. I just learned today that I am in the process of miscarrying. My Beta HCG levels dropped significantly, like from 26,000 to 1,600 in a month. My sister had a baby on Nov. 11, and my baby was due Nov. 12. I was 10 weeks yesterday. I am sad, but sure I will be even more sad as time goes on. I hope you are able to heal and enjoy your nephew. Good luck!

Noel's girl · 04-18-2005, 08:26 PM

I know exactly how you feel I had A miscarriage about 7 weeks ago and one of my good friends and I were both pregnant at the same time, we were exactly a week apart. It is hard to see her now in maternity clothes and knowing that i would be at that stage right know. I know it will be hard to go to the hospital when the baby is born and hold that baby in my arms knowing that I would have a baby of my own at that time. So me, and I am sure a bunch of people on this board know exactly how you feel and are here for you. I am going through a hard time right now also with the miscarriage it has just been a rough week, af made a visit and that along with the miscarriage having been just 7 weeks ago it just hard sometimes to get through the day with a smile on your face. You are in my thoughts and prayers that some way, it gets easier on your heart with your nephew.

tamaraheiner · 04-19-2005, 03:59 PM

Noel's girl, af came?

Noel's girl · 04-19-2005, 09:38 PM

Yes on the 14 of April waiting for her to be over, don't miss her at all. And can't wait to start trying again. We can not start officially trying again until June 2, and it seems so far away. What about you, you and dh are trying now right?