impo1980.... - Miscarriage & Still Birth Message Board

brixylake · 04-18-2005, 04:08 PM

HI there. Thanks for checking in on me. I'm sad to report I am miscarrying. I went for my Beta HCG this morning. While waiting for the results I went up to my OB's office. They pulled my levels from before and the numbers told them the worst. On March 21, the level was 26,000 on April 16 in the ER the level was 1,600. My husband and I sobbed in the elevator on the way out. I've cried off and on, but I'm a strong believer in "everything happens for a reason" I only worry that I will have a hard time getting pregnant after this. We will try again once we are able to. We want more than one, and I'll be 29 in August and my hubby is already 29. I have to go tomorrow to probably schedule a D&C. I know nothing could have been done and it isn't my fault, but it's still not the outcome I wanted. I have to stay strong and try again. Thank you again for your responses.......

Denise

zekat · 04-18-2005, 08:23 PM

You and I are in very much the same situation. I actually replied to your post the other day but then decided against it. I had no hope to give and it just seemed wrong. I was at 7 weeks when I woke up one morning and my breasts were no longer sore... I tried to not think anything of it until I went to the bathroom and I noticed a tiny spot of blood on the toilet paper when I wiped. I immediately started crying. I *knew* at that point that I was not going to be having a baby. I was able to get in to see my OB. By then I was spotting much heavier. However, my cervix was closed and the ultrasound showed a baby - my doc gave me a 50/50 shot at carrying the baby. It was called a threatened miscarriage. I should have been hopeful, but by the time I got home, my panties were soaked and I began passing clots and cramping quiet terribly. This all happened on a Friday ( I noticed you went to the ER on Saturday and I REALLY wanted to post to you because I understood what you were going through, but I wanted you to have hope...!?) anyhow - I had my levels drawn on Monday and my HCG was at 200... I knew I had miscarried Friday night. They had me come in. The baby was gone.

I'm 28 - will be 29 next month. I wanted the baby so bad it makes me cross-eyed at time... but I'm realistic too and I do have hope that I will be pregnant again. I feel certain the next pregnancy will be better as I've learned to be better to myself. I continue to take a pre-natal. I've also not stopped trying. I know they say to wait until a cycle is complete, but forget that... they aren't me. Good luck to you! Please don't lose hope... it's terrible to lose a baby to a miscarriage, but there is a tiny bit of hope in it... you are not infertile and that truly IS something!

impo1980 · 04-18-2005, 08:59 PM

i am sooooo sorry to hear about your loss...i feel horrible like i gave you wrong information....i am sorry that you have to go through this it is a horrible experience. it has only been one year since my miscarriage and we have just started to try again i am seeing a fertility specitalist on the 9th of may to see what he can do for me (i have problems with cysts on my ovary) i will keep you posted if i get any information from my doctor about ways to get pregnant fast.....when i had my miscarriage my doctor told me that 1 in 3 pregnancys end in miscarriage..i couldnt believe it i felt like i was the only one in the world. i wish you all the best and hope you pregnant again soon and healthy!!!!!!! good luck to you ill keep you in my prayers!!

tricia

brixylake · 04-18-2005, 09:02 PM

Thank you for that! I am cautiously optimistic. I still haven't had major bleeding or cramping. Mostly still just when I wipe. I hope that I can just have the D&C and be done with it. We do have similar stories. I am also 28 and will be 29 in August. Sad thing is the miscarriage started on our 6th month wedding anniversary. We've decided to plant a tree in our yard for the baby. We will certainly try again and hopefully soon. Thank you for posting and sharing your story, I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers hoping for us to both be pregnant again soon. See you on the pregnancy boards when it's our time!!

brixylake · 04-18-2005, 09:05 PM

Thank you Tricia... no please don't feel like you gave me wrong information. Not at all.... I wish you all the luck with getting pregnant soon. Definately keep me posted on your situation. Thanks again for all your kind words and responses. I'm ok. Sad of course, but I believe everything happens for a reason, I just need to stay hopeful. My husband seems to be taking this much harder than I am. Maybe after the D&C I'll feel worse, I don't know. Take care, Thanks again!