yummy31

I guess everyone's experience of a miscariage is different, depending on many individual things. I have 3 beautiful children, though unfortunately i miscarried 7 weeks ago at 14 weeks. My experience was that i started to bleed unexpectedly about two weeks before, paniced straight away of-cource. Having had three easy pregnancies and births i guess i knew that something was wrong. At 12 weeks 2 days i was sent for my normal scan and it showed that everything was ok, i guess that gave me a little more hope seeing my little babe moving about. Though i did still have the doubt that everything was not ok, regardless of what the results were etc.. u know when something is wrong, guess it's just instincts. Well the doctor then assured me once again after this that sometimes you do bleed and for no apparent reason. 8 days later, bleeding had subsided a little but started to feel a little ill. A little like my body had some kind of infection, just not sure what as i had not been sick at all. Went back to the doctor and he prescribed antibiotics as he seemed to think i had an infection due to the bleeding. I guess i had. I still can't help thinking that if this had been treated earlier things would of been ok as they had been up until this stage, maybe i am just looking for some kind of explanation i don't know. ( I did experience an ectopic pregnancy 18 months earlier where my tube was removed and this could well have been the scar tissue bleeding just from the uterus expanding i guess) still not sure, though this is what i am told. Well miscarried 2 days later and to me it was exactly like birth except for the stretching of the vagina. I had labour pains for about 3 hours, which had been much worse than all my births as they were 45 mins-1hour. I made it to the hospital just in time, my little babe just came out and hung in the toilet the moment i arrived in emergency. So not only was this more painful experience than giving birth to a beautiful newborn it was so much more painful emtionally as well. My periods have just returned 6 weeks later and seem to be quite normal. My body seems to be ok and well adjusted but i figure this is something that takes time to get over, if you ever do. For the first couple of weeks after losing my babe all i wanted was to have her or another so desperately, but as time goes on i'm not sure i eva wan't to go through this kind of trauma again. Waiting and waiting till you pass the mark of your loss, and it is also harder to accept as they say that once you pass the 12 week mark you can start to feel a little safer about pregnancy loss. i guess it doesn't really matter how long you carry your babe for it is still a painfull experience, though the longer you have the tiny babe growing inside you the longer it takes to