susanna_29

Hi Everyone- My husband and I lost our first child in March of this year. During that time my brother-in-law and his fiancee' got pregnant and didn't tell anyone til about 1 month ago. I am still kind of surprised and shocked, yet jealous at the same time. They are not even married yet, and he is not showing much interest in having a 2nd child. He does not even play with his first born. He barely watches her or pays any attention! It is sad! My husband absolutely adores kids! Anyway, it is definitely playing w/ my emotions. We live on the west coast and they're in the midwest. But we are moving back there this fall. She is due around Thanksgiving. I am not so sure how I will be able to handle it. To be honest I could see myself losing it in front of them. My husband does not understand why I am getting this way. I am an emotional person, so it's hard to manage. I know I could not go to her baby shower, if she has one. M husband says I could handle it, but I KNOW I could not. I would lose it. How in the world can I get through this? Hopefully there won't be a baby shower, and plus I am in her wedding this summer!!! She will be 6 months pregnant! Plus, one of her good friends is also in the wedding and she is pregnant too!!! I feel like it is all a huge nightmare!! I am happy for them, but at the same time I am afraid I will be a huge wreck the day of the wedding!! Plus, when she asked me to be in her wedding, I didn't even know at the time. It was probably a month or two after I miscarried. I hate this! I can't wait til the wedding is over and I am back at my own house!!!