Im new to this forum and am hoping to find some support.
I found out i was pregnant very early at only 4 weeks, and the day i found out i had some light bleeding, i was booked in to have a scan the following day. Everything seemed to be ok, and my blood results came back fine. They wanted me to come back the next week to check on me again.
I went back and was now 5 weeks, and again everything was fine, they told me there was nothing to worry about, but again asked me to come back a week later.
So once again i went back now at 6 weeks and there was a tiny pole measuring at 2.5mm, everything was going great and was told that my pregnancy was developing "beautifully" But yet again, they wished for me to come back a week later just to have another check.
I thought to myself "if everything was fine, why am i coming back every week?" I was assured that nothing was wrong and that when they see everything is ok by week 7 they will leave me alon until week 12. I went away feeling happy.
So last wednesday i went back for my 7 week scan, i was excited as this was my first baby and couldn't wait to see the little white dot bigger this time, only to be crushed by the words "I'm sorry, there is no growth, the baby is still 2.5mm i'm affraid your baby has died".
devestated i was sent into a private room to discuss my options with one of the nurses. She told me that this was something that could have been expected as "the pregnancy was struggling all along"!!!! Why in gods name didn't they ever tell me?? All along i was being told that everything was fine and there was nothing to worry about.
I was sent home and told to think about my two options over the weekend, misscarry at home or have the oporation. Immediately i chose to stay at home, but today i can't handle it anymore and am now booked in for the oporation tomorrow at 12pm.
Everything about this is truely devestating for me, but what hurts the most was the shock of being told my baby was struggling all along when i was assured everything was fine.
I wanted to have the oporation as the waiting for the misscarage is too painfull. I just hope i have made the right choice.