i thought my miscarriage was bad enough but reading this its so sad
i didnt know i was miscarrying although i had alot of cramp abdominal pain an started bleeding i had convinced myself the bleeding was normal but the pain obviously wasnt.
basically it felt like i was having pains every 2 mins i got to the hospital i needed to b transfered to another hospital but by 12:30 at night i was knackered needed sleep so told hubby to take me home. i thought things wud be alright the following day i wasnt so in the end my hubby took me to the royal in leicester then i passed out wen they called for me in the room wen they was going to ask me my name i dont remember much i only remember hubby wafting a thing over my face cos i was so hot then put in recovery room tests an all sorts. I rememeber a women looking at me an im sure thinkin bk she new i was going to miscarry still was think by then i was alright considering i was in agony.
then i was told to see a doc there that wud internaly examin me but i said No so they didnt then they tried to put me on a ward but my sis and husband wasnt allowed to stay with me so i panicked an freaked out so i discharged myself got bk in the car half way home told hubby to stop the morphine kicked in i was in way to much pain for the rest so i told him to turn bk an get me to hospital so put on the ward family had to go.
i waited for hubby for a chance to call him an see if he got home ok we was chatting for few mins an said i was in pain an screamed i had to go toilet an sed id ring him back soon.
I miscarried on the 5th september at 12:25 at night an 10 mins later as he'd not long sat down an it was the hardest thing ever to tell my husband that we'd lost the baby.
seeing a complete miscarriage in a bowl an i screamed an didnt believe it was my baby i kept asking the women. the man at the reception workin on main desk walked away he must of heard me.
they asked me if i wanted to look at it again i said no i was crying too much by then.
to help me get through this i class our baby at 3 months wen i was as a baby girl called Trinity we was going to call her that its the only way i can get my self through it.
What im trying gto say is that all misscarriages are bad D&C, missed miscarriage complete are all the same with the emotional and physical. still heartbreaking.
i would be 5 months now looking at buying things, shared craving experiances etc..
hope you are all ok xx