im in a very badway, 3 weeks ago during my 16 week antenatal visit i was given the devestating news that my baby had no heartbeat. as i was alone at the appointment my husband was called by the nurse and told what had happened. we were told that i was to be given a tablet to bring on a misscarriage and brought into hospital to have my baby 2 days later.
The labour was bad but not as bad as i had expected it was more emotionally difficult than painfull. after i had delivered my baby boy the nurse brought him to us and we called him max the following day we had a naming ceremony and he ws burried 4 days later. i thought by now i would be getting through it and coping but im not i try to be strong in front of my husband and 4 kids but when im alone im a wreck . i have started to have panic attacks and was very close to self harming just to have soom release from the pain im feeling inside somebody please help me i feel like im falling deeper into despair
Emma, I am TERRIBLY sorry for your devastating loss.
You need to talk to a professional about it. Smothering the emotions and then wanting to harm yourself is no way to cope. You deserve so much better!!
For yourself and your family, PLEASE get help.