Originally Posted by raindroptears
I just want the pain to go away and for my heart to stop aching...
Know that you can come here to vent,seek advice and get the support that you need at this point in time.
I can't say that I know exactly how you're feeling but know that all pain is relative and I for one can sympathetically appreciate your situation.
Know that you are not alone and the fact that you have expressed this online is to be admired.