newly dxed - how do you not think about it? - Multiple Sclerosis Message Board

baddoey · 11-19-2004, 02:10 PM

I'm newly dxed - starting injections in a few weeks. I'm a single professional woman in my early thirties; most of my family lives overseas. . I do have some great friends where I live. My symptoms are mostly sensory at this time - I've gone through all the tests, 2 MRI's (spots on brain - spine clear), lowish b12 levels, LP came back clear and the evoked potentials came back normal as well - so I have no disability at this point. But I can't stop thinking about it. I ended a long-term relationship at the beginning of this year with an alcoholic, we tried to work on a friendship after that, when I told him I was sick in Aug he told me that he would be there for me. . well I never heard from him again. . good riddance I know, last thing I need is to have someone in my life that I can't depend on. I stay active, and really want to live a full life and maybe even find someone to share it with and maybe have children, but I just can't stop thinking about the fact that I am sick - if I sound selfish right now I am sorry - reading many of your posts I am truly inspired by your commitment to living and enjoying everything that you have. how or when will I stop thinking about this so much and just move forward? I hope this doesn't sound too depressing, I just feel like I could be a better person if I wasn't so preoccupied with my MS. . I don't know if this makes any sense to anyone, but if you have any advice I would appreciate it.

thanks

Heddi · 11-19-2004, 04:20 PM

I can understand how you feel. I am fairly new with MS, just diagnosed in April, and I too have periods of depression. I feel that as time progresses and we realize that it is not as bad as it may seem. This too shall pass.

apriltones · 11-19-2004, 05:02 PM

its ever likely to feel like that, i would too. Dont be hard on your self. im waiting to have mri as dont know whats wrong yet, taake care, keep healthy, i heard diet plays big part in keeping ms symptoms minimal, love april x

Natatude · 11-20-2004, 08:09 AM

i know a great book u could buy and read! please do it! if u like reading u will love this book! i gave it to my cousins wife cause she was just dxed with MS and they were just married in july and she is only 21,, it's called "Out of The Blue" by Sally Mandel u can buy it in ur local book store, or off **** or online,, it is about a woman who was dxed with MS has a close relationship with her mom and wants to get married and have a family but thinks the MS is stopping her!

baddoey · 11-22-2004, 08:43 AM

thanks for the replys - like you just said, I don't want it to stop me - and I don't want to stop myself from having a good life. . my symptoms are mild at this point and I am trying to make some life-style changes to lead a healthier life. I have been drinking a little too much lately, trying to go out and be social and have fun (I was always sort of a homebody). I know at this point there is no way to tell what is going to happen to me over the next few decades and I want to enjoy everything right now, but just feel a little burdened.