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MSNik · 01-15-2008, 12:09 PM

To anyone who is interested....didnt make it to the interview. Sitting here crying my eyes out over the lost opportunity. I know, its JUST A JOB, but after so many years of working for what may only be described as the worlds WORST boss, in what is one of the greatest jobs possible, the idea of having both the job and the company (boss) was too good to miss....and I missed it.

I called them and explained the situtaion, they were very understanding but still insisted that today was the only day of interviews as the company is in another state, and they were only having the interviews in my territory today- they basically said if I couldnt make it, there wouldnt be another opportunity unless this person they hire quits or doesnt work out....but if that happens they would keep me on file for one year.
Big deal. Im angry at myself for not being able to get thru the pain...im angry at my doctor for not fitting me in until Thursday to talk about why Im still in so much pain...Im angry at MS for making the pain worse then it was supposed to be. (and im angry at my husband who is angry at me for not "trying harder").
Thanks for letting me vent.
I really needed to let that go...if only it were that easy.
Hope all of you are having good days..
Nikki

sassy8 · 01-15-2008, 12:17 PM

I'm sorry about your big disappointment. I would be as angry as you are. There will be other jobs that will be good. You just had surgery it takes time to heal. Take care of yourself this truly sucks. hugs and prayers Sassy

duttin · 01-15-2008, 12:36 PM

Nikki,

Now You Made Me Cry,i Am So Sorry That You Didn't Make The Interveiw,you Thought It Was A Possibility.it Was A Shame Under The Circumstances That They Couldn't Do A Phone Interveiw.

I Know You Have The Worlds Worst And Crappy Boss,but Sweetie This May Have Happened For Reasons Out Of Your Control A Higher Force.

My X Was Turned Down For A Job Years Back In Missouri,he Was Devastated,but If He Would Of Gotten The Job,that Summer It Flooded And Many In That Area Didn't Make It.

Sometimes Things Aren't Meant To Be And We Get Upset.

You Will Find That Right Job,when The Time Is Right.

I Wish I Could Take Some Of The Pain Away,its Not Fair When We Get The Double Wammy,surgery And The Extra Hightened Pain.

Don't You Get Angry With Yourself Because Of The Pain And Not Fighting It Harder,your A Very Strong Person,with Surgery And When They Use Them Scapals We Are Gonna Be Left With Pain.its Not Been A Week,you Were In Surgery For 6 Hours,you Need To Take Time To Let Those Wounds Heal.

Now For Hubby,he Needs To Build A Bridge And Get Over This.how Dare He Get Angry With You Over The Pain.thats Not Fair,he's Not Playing Fair.

Now You Don't Want Me To Cheer Ya Up,i'd Have To Sing To You And That Won't Be A Pretty Sight And It Wouldn't Help Your Pain Level.

You Vent All You Need.

We All Get Mad At The Ms,thats Okay We Can!!!!!!!!!!

T

MSNik · 01-15-2008, 01:47 PM

Hey Toni, did you ever hear the expression sister of the heart? You are, you know. Thank you. I needed to hear this from you right now....I really did. Im still very upset with myself, my surgery and my husband....you know the list is endless today. But, youre probably right about other jobs and opportunities and the reasons why things do or dont work out. This was my "dream' job, but in all honesty, im making more money at the one I have- and the only real perk I have is that I can pretty much set my own hours and come home early when things are MSey for me...that, and I can see Doctors when I have to, basically without clearing it with anyone, since most of my doctors are within my designated territory and no one knows exactly where I am anyway....I guess if I focus on that, my job isnt so horrible and things DO happen for a reason...
Husband, is tired of me complaining, tired of NOT working himeslf, he is laid off still and will be for some more time- I think its all adding up...but mostly he is confused not understanding how MS can affect us differently....he keeps saying "the doctor said you should be back at work" or "The doctor said youd feel better in 3 days", but he doesnt get it that that doctor ISNT my neuro- he's my surgeon (GYN) who just doesnt totally get the whole MS thing to begin with....
Okay, I think IM done venting..
thank you my friend for being there...needed to hear those words.
Hope you are feeling good today and that you arent freezing to death..its really cold today around here and we didnt get the snow they had anticipated last weekend..instead, we got the cold, damp, rain!
Hugs
N

Bearygood · 01-15-2008, 02:25 PM

Nikki, I'm betting that the other call you got is going to wind up being a better opportunity.

That's my story and I'm sticking to it.