It's been awhile since I asked, but I need another kick in the pants. This time about work.
The temperature here has been very hot for this area 32 C and above. Despite our new AC in the house, my symptoms have worsened and tonight I'm feeling particularly horrid. I've been having proprioception problems in my feet for months now, but now my hands are doing the same thing. Occasionally it makes me forget about wanting to gnaw my feet off or the fuzzy spot in my vision....
I've been taking 1 or 2 sick days a week since Summer started, and while my boss is very understanding, I feel guilty about it. I worked a full day today and I'm dreading working tomorrow, particularly because I have a few hours driving to do.
I'm SOOOOO lucky to have a job where I could be off for the rest of the Summer without losing my position, exhausting my benefits or losing any pay.
Also, if I decide I can't do the particular job I'm in, my organization is obliged to find something else for me. So why am I so reluctant to go off sick??? I can be 'ordered' off work, but I'm good at skating around all of that so far. My family doctor has offered to put me off work, but I've declined so far. Last year, when I first took sick, I was off for several months.
Without a diagnosis, I don't feel like I have any justification for being off sick, and I think also I'm afraid of admitting that I can't do my job anymore.
Sorry for rambling, but I need some words of wisdom. I feel so crappy I can't think straight right now. I went rummaging for some Celebrex that I had been given when I was initially diagnosed with ankylosing spondylitis.... I was hoping it would help some, but hasn't obviously.