Greetings, and thanks for your reply!
Yes, I guess denial and depression go together like movie night and popcorn. I suppose denial could make me more likely to set goals and strive to reach them.
I think that once I accept whatever it is that I have I might stop trying to work as a bicycle mechanic. I'm trying to work half days every other day to give myself some time to rest, but am finding those days off are spent in bed, often too sore to go for groceries. I guess I should look for a seditary job, but I find it hard to think that I'll be useful in an office setting.