| Re: Nerve damage...and dealing with it
Thank you so much to all of you who responded to my message.
Ladybird, thank you especially for sharing your story. I have been waiting and waiting for someone to tell what it feels like when (if) feeling comes back and I so appreciate your description of what has been going on with you. It's like, no-one can give me any answers and I feel like I'm floundering in a vacuum! I guess it is just so different for everyone there is no one way to say what are good signs and what are bad (especially when signs that I might be getting feeling back, like tingling or pain, could also be bad signs). It really is so confusing and oftentimes depressing.
To answer your question, yes, I can lift my leg and my toes. I can't stand on tiptoe or flex most of the muscles in that leg. My calf and glutes have completely atrophied.
Ladybird, I was also glad (well, you know what I mean) to hear that you also feel that the leg strength fluctuates throughout the day. I truly thought I was going crazy and did not understand how that could happen. One day it feels like what my new version of "normal" is, the next day I can barely lift that leg to walk up stairs.
I hate to say it but to answer your other question, no, I do not feel that the numbness has let up at all. It has been six months since the surgery and everything feels exactly the same. I had been hoping that the changes are just so incremental that I don't notice them (one millimeter at a time), instead of thinking of this as the worst possible sign.
As far as exercise goes, yes, I am giving it all I've got. I try to swim and bike at the gym. I HATE walking, as I"m sure you understand. I still can't go more than 20 minutes at a time and my limp gets worse and worse.
Anyway, I really, truly appreciate everything that you have written. Please know that yes, you have helped one person feel better and more optimistic. Thank you for that.
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