notsowelladjusted

I am new to this, so bear with me!, (like a grizzly, can't spell either).
But anywho, this is my deal; I am the poster child for ADHD (DSM-IV, 12 out of 12), I can live with that, and I can live with the fact that I check the doors twice (or three times), that all the can lables in my pantry face the same way, My shrink asks me if i hear voices? I wouldn't call it that. more like echos in my head, they don't tell me what to do and seldom even talk to me, just Conversations back there, I know I could be a part of if I wanted to, because i am the other person in the conversation... and the paranoia really sucks... you know looking out the windows, stairing at the air vents, cracks in the wall,, I asked my best friend last friday if he were trying to kill me, thats embearasing, (still can't spell). I have no concept of time, and I've binked out a few times (lost 4hr or even 2wks of my life before coming to...) the worst one, we were at red lobster and I thought my family was trying to kill me, and the only way I would live was to eat mt food in a serton order, thats rediculous. but why do I have these spells?
My doc currently has me on 450mg of wellbutrin SR, & some concerta sr, yeah, whatever, it's like I stepped a yr back in time. my prev doc had me on 80mg of adderall & 600mg of provigil /day we were starting to get somewhere as far as the ADHD & Depression goes, but lets fix one thing at a time. sleep used to be good,, yeah, my 2-4hr/night, but now that sucks even worse than life... I'm tired any suggestions? I know it's all in my head! Let me say that again ... `IT`S ALL IN MY HEAD... what gives???
...thanx