Despair - Obesity Message Board

~Melody~ · 11-20-2003, 11:42 AM

Hi

I don't even know what to do. There are so many diets out there. I want to lose weight because at 5'5 265lbs I feel like I'm a whale and I'm only 20 years old. I don't go out anymore,I feel depress, Low selfsteam and I feel like I can't go on like this. I have to lose at least 120lbs. I heard about Aitkins but it says that is not good for the brain (I can't go on this diet because I 'm studying for my boards test),Cortislim (I can't go on this one cause I can't afford it), Counting calories( can't do it cause I stay hungry and eat too much afterwards) Gastric bypass( Too much money and I heard that you might gain the weight back) I'm desperate here!!! Don't know what to do anymore. It seams like all those diet pills are living off all of us. I can't take this anymore, I'm always in a bad mood cause I can't fit in any of my clothes and I can't go out cause of this.

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Mommy2Isaiah · 11-22-2003, 11:33 PM

I know exactly what you are going through. I am 26 years old, 5'5 and weigh 265! Amazing! I am considering Gastric Bypass surgery b/c I have tried just about everything. I was down to 217 2 summers ago, and I'm not real sure what happened, but I gained it all back. I haven't changed my eating habits since then...could be the Depo shot, maybe. Who the heck knows? I know that I am very frustrated EVERY DAY and can't stand to think what other people think when they see me or when they see me eat. I don't have any real advice for you, except to hang in there, cuz I am. Let me reassure you about something, though (and you didn't say whether you had a bf or not) but there is someone out there that will LOVE you no matter what. I am living proof of that. I got married on Oct. 11 and my husband doesn't care what I look like. I overheard him talking to my son about me and he was asking Isaiah if his gf was as beautiful as his mommy. My heart never felt so good. So don't worry....hang in there.

~Melody~ · 11-23-2003, 10:52 AM

Hey there thanks for your post, I do have a bf. We are not married yet but we are planning to. I'm not doing it to find a bf, but just to feel better. I want to be able to wear pretty clothes.Mommy2Isaiah I wish we can chat sometime.Mezmereyes4u with aol.

Mommy2Isaiah · 11-23-2003, 01:29 PM

I know exactly what you mean about the clothes. I hate going shopping and seeing all the pretty "skinny" clothes. Then go to my section and see all the floral prints and crappy clothes there. Anything worth buying is expensive, like Lane Bryant and Tommy Hilfiger. But I keep my eye open for the Tommy jeans, cuz they fit my body style the best.
I didn't mean to imply that you wanted to be skinny to find a man, I know exactly what you are going through, and I am so glad that you have someone. Even though we are overweight, it makes it a LITTLE easier to have someone and know that we are loved. I have a hard time with ME, still, but he doesn't. I will get ahold of ya!

Mommy2Isaiah · 11-23-2003, 01:34 PM

I know alot of people that have tried WW and had amazing results. Maybe I'm making excuses, but I can't see myself doing the WW thing. Maybe I haven't hit rock bottom, yet and that's my problem. I know that I can't stand the body that I see in the mirror and I'm so afraid that if I join, I will fail. I've failed every other option that I've tried and I can't see me spending the money on that to fail again. I was going to Curves for about 6 months 4-6 times a week FAITHFULLY, and was watching what I put into my mouth. Guess what....I GAINED 12 POUNDS and 1 1/2 inches all over! WHAT IS THAT ABOUT? I was listening to Dr. Phil on the radio and he had someone on there for his weight loss challenge and he had a medical problem where his body was actually eating his muscle instead of his fat. Maybe I'll go get tested for that. I'm getting outta here, getting really depressed....