I am taking my life BACK! - Obesity Message Board

Christin · 08-09-2004, 08:44 AM

Lots of cliches are floating around my brain..."today is the first day of the rest of my life" comes to mind. Anyway, there is no junk food in my house today, I have my meals and snacks planned out and lots of bottles water in the fridge. I have done my homework, I have the motivation, and I am as prepared as I know how to be. Now, it is up to me, and I know that. 100 pounds overweight...this is definitely a marathon, not a sprint!

I want to thank EVERYONE here on this board for all of your time, advice, sympathy...I started posting here at the end of my rope. I was beaten...ready to accept that I would die young because I could not control what I put in my mouth. I would NOT be on the road I am today without you guys!!! JD...your advice has been invaluable...I owe you a debt for all the time and energy you put into helping me change my life. I know this battle is mine to win or lose...but I never would have started fighting it at all without your help. Thank you seems so inadequate, but it is all I have

I'm going to keep coming around here...you guys are my cheerleaders and I know you will give it to me straight when I try to whine my way into failure...and I need that! My greatest hope is that in a year or two...my posts will be from a girl who has LOST 100 pounds!

lady_grey · 08-09-2004, 11:17 AM

Christin, That is wonderful that you are working towards making yourself better! I think it is great that you are taking steps that will helpful and as you said, it is not a sprint so make sure that you let yourself enjoy that piece of cake every now and then at a birthday --just not the whole cake

I limit myself by eating healthy when I am at home and during the week but allow myself to enjoy whatever food I want on the weekends as long as I only eat half. For me, it has worked out so that I do not feel like I am missing out on life, but rather enjoy it!

Christin · 08-09-2004, 03:08 PM

Thanks lady_grey

I know I will one day be able to have my cake and eat it too, but for a while I am really going to try to stick to the plan without "cheating". I have GOT to get my cravings and appetite under control! Today is more difficult than I thought it would be, guess all my excitement only goes so far. I feel weak and light-headed like I am hungry, but I know that my body is getting the fuel it needs and I have to keep reminding myself that I am NOT hungry, I am just craving bad things! Cravings for me feel so much like real hunger, but I have to believe that the two feelings will become seperate if I can just let my body get used to being properly fed.

We had white dinner rolls with supper last night (my final goodbye to white flour!), and there are some left over and they have been calling to me all day! I don't want to get rid of them b/c my son really likes them, but OMG that is EXACTLY what I am craving!!! If I can hold out for the next day or two until those are gone without giving in, I know I can resist ANYTHING

OH, also, this drinking water thing makes me have to pee like every 30 minutes! I haven't even finished 64 ounces yet, but GEEEEZ! Is my bladder going to adjust to the water eventually?

west virginia girl · 08-09-2004, 03:46 PM

I know we will be seeing a post from a girl who lost 100 pounds! You can do this...Mind set and determination....You have that. I am always here for support. I am proud of you and hope one day to be proud of myself as well.
Food is like a drug and I have relized I don't want to be controlled by something that when taken to extreme its bad for me. I want to live a long healthy life to be with my husband and son. They are my inspiration and I am just fed up with being unhappy about myself.
So you GO GIRL! and I'm right behinde ya=)

Christin · 08-09-2004, 05:46 PM

I am so excited!!! It is so nice to have this board to come to and hear from people like you...I pop in and read it all day long, and it helps me to stop focusing on how deprived or depressed I am feeling. I have found that I truly am my own worst enemy...I have to get my thoughts and feelings out of my head and communicate with other people, other wise my mind plays with my emotions and will power and sanity! I don't have any friends or family here, so you are all helping me more than you know.

WVGirl...remind me...how much do you have to lose? Do you have any kids? Go to school?