A mad fat person! - Obesity Message Board

chubbychunks · 07-19-2005, 12:59 PM

well im starting this thread bc im mad and im fat, lol. Losing weight can be so darn frustrating... and being fat can be even more frustrating.. especially when you are young and you see all your friends around you going on dates and getting promotions.. its just so hard!.
Well, ive just started to at least attempt to fight back .. as of saturday, ive started going to the gym and eating pretty good.. not exceptionally but im trying. I think the biggest step for me is just pulling away from the tv after work and instead opting to go the gym (i pay 35 a month so why not). So far so good.. on saturday morning i weighed in at 243.5-244. Not good.. very depressing actually considering that just last year I weight about 25 pounds less..so but the good thing is i weighed myself today..(which i wouldnt recommend weighing yourself constantly bc you will get depressed bc you feel its an endless task of dieting--which in all reality it is) but i lost 4 pounds just by going to the gym from 1-2hours a day. For any obese person i think we need to go at least 6x's a week to maximize weight loss. I do about :50min. of cardio and :30min. of weights ..thigh abduction and arms ..alternate on days as far as thigh and arms... problem is i dont know what to do to get rid of the kangaroo pouch.. any suggestions? Im going to try to keep posting every so often when i feel vulnerable... i hope who are struggling with this life's mission post too.. good luck everyone!

Chubbychunks
Maryland

pcantona · 07-19-2005, 01:44 PM

Hi there. You are doing good and you should be proud that you are doing something about this. Yes I know that weighing yourself all the time might be depressing, BUT you have to do it, even though you will get depressed being reminded of your weight all the time. It is one one the most important tools for you to monitor your weight. Look at it as a mission or a quest that you can win. Be happy for every LBs lost, instead of looking at it from the negative side that you lost 4 lbs, but you are still fat etc. It is like, is the glass half full or half empty??!. Sometimes your weight might "seem" to stop..when you exercise, but that is because you have gained muscles(which is good, muscles burn fat even when you sleep) and will raise your overall metabolism rate. Also you have to remember that the heavier you are, the more weight fluctuates. Like a 250lbs girl contains ALOT of water than a 110lbs girl, so when you exercise and sweat you loose more water weight etc.

SilentSuffering · 07-20-2005, 08:35 PM

Well, today I returned to the gym. I was uncomfortable there, I had forgotten some of the things I was taught in my free personal training session. But alas, I slogged through it. I did a little bit of weight training (almost the full circuit), and then I gave up and went to cardio for 45 minutes. I care more about the cardio right now, since I'm more concerned with burning calories and reducing the size of my body than I am about toning my muscles. I figure, it will be much easier to work out after I've lost say, 20 or 30 lbs. I will eventually do the weight training, but right now I want to fit in my pants, because I can't afford to buy more.

I just got back from the grocery store where I bought nectarines, plums, apples, and bananas. I'm trying to go down a different road that involves trying to follow the Food Guide Pyramid and get my recommended fruits and veggies. (I currently eat 1 or fewer fruits per day, and no vegetables.) I am sure I'll feel better if I actually eat stuff that's good for me. I've really got to buckle down and find out what it's like to be comfortable in my own skin.

Lean Cuisines and Healthy Choice meals were on sale, but I had to pass on them. They're so chock-full of sodium that they'll not only be too salty, but they'll make me thirsty, and they'll raise my blood pressure. I did buy a frozen pasta thing that I hope I can stretch into two meals, and some cold cut turkey.

I really need portion control. My portions are enough (usually) for about 4 people, and restaurants usually give you that amount. I LOVE steak houses, and I usually get the smallest steak on the menu, which is 16 ounces, or 4x the normal serving amount. They also give you a big baked potato, butter, a couple of sodas... and before I know it, I've probably consumed a 2,000 calorie dinner. And that's one of my favorite meals!

I've been fat for a while, and now it's time to try something new (being slender). I've just got to get myself moving. I sit all day at work, and I've got to convince my body to drive to the gym so I can do something productive and healthy, instead of driving home and sitting at the computer for hours upon hours and doing nothing.

This is probably the 100th time I've actually said this to myself, but if I don't get serious now, am I going to do it when I'm 30? 40? 50? I really don't want to wait until I hit rock bottom, whatever that may be.

I figure, I'm a miserable person. if I don't change my life now, I'm going to be miserable for the rest of my life.

Anyway, I'm going to try to follow what Jackie O said: (to paraphrase) "I eat whatever I want; I just leave half of it on my plate."

Best of luck from another mad, fat person.

suffering_in_silence
f / 23 / 220 / 5'4"

It's hard to believe I used to be a dancer!

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"Man is least himself when he talks in his own person. Give him a mask and he'll tell you the truth." -- Oscar Wilde

chubbychunks · 07-21-2005, 02:06 PM

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Originally Posted by SilentSuffering

am sure I'll feel better if I actually eat stuff that's good for me. I've really got to buckle down and find out what it's like to be comfortable in my own skin

Wow Silent Suffering, thats a deep thought you made me go into.. "to be comfortable in my (your) own skin"... I think thats apart of the misery to not be comfortable with yourself.. To have confidence in so many other truly beautiful areas in your life and your work .. but lack the comfort of a body. You know my favorite color is black.. to mask my hanging skin. Although I love pink, I would look like a big chunk of cotton candy (get the imagery).

I think if we do this, we will truly be able to master anything we want. Mind over matter! You know think of it this way.. if you can just tell yourself to get to just make it in your car and turn the starter.. you're 30% there.. and if you can walk into the gym you're chancing of staying at least :30min. is about 70%... just think about that.. so the greatest task is to get in your car and drive to your gym... the rest will come naturally. Thats what I keep telling myself.. just get in my car.... besides I dont want to let myself down anymore.. Im a pretty girl I owe it to myself to create the best thats possible.. and not look back when im like 70 and be hateful, discontent, and miserable.

You know I did a calculation.. if a person were to lose 6 pounds each week technically by the 6th month you should weigh -120 pounds (less)... so even if you did half of that .. that would still be a great accomplishment. So if you started today.. this very second, by Jan. of next year.. which isnt long at all... you will be a long way from where you are now...

Just something to think about..

I'll post again soon

Chubbychunks

Maryland,

Just so you know you're not alone im 24/5'7/237 pounds

SilentSuffering · 07-21-2005, 06:36 PM

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Originally Posted by chubbychunks

Wow Silent Suffering, thats a deep thought you made me go into.. "to be comfortable in my (your) own skin"... I think thats apart of the misery to not be comfortable with yourself...

Im a pretty girl I owe it to myself to create the best thats possible.. and not look back when im like 70 and be hateful, discontent, and miserable.

You know I did a calculation.. if a person were to lose 6 pounds each week technically by the 6th month you should weigh -120 pounds (less)... so even if you did half of that .. that would still be a great accomplishment. So if you started today.. this very second, by Jan. of next year.. which isnt long at all... you will be a long way from where you are now...

Yeah. I do feel that it's a huge part of our misery. Envy is part of it, self pity is part of it, hopelessness is part of it, and so on.

I'm a very smart lady, and I'm a college student. I'm not trying to brag (too much) but with almost no effort, I earned a 3.9 GPA in school. I was .1 away from being a perfect A student!

Despite my amazing knack at earning great grades and acing tests without studying, I have very low self confidence. I guess I could be "cute" if I were thin, you know? It makes me feel horrible some times, to see a gorgeous girl with guys hitting on her and girls paying attention to her... Isn't it terrible that someone like me would (and has) thought, "I would trade my intelligence to look like her."

Part of what gets me moving when I do move is that there's definitely too much of me. Plus, my mother will be 59 this year, and she weighs 200 lbs. She's got arthritis, high blood pressure, and she's miserable all the time due to depression. I don't want to end up like her. I'm already manic-depressive!

Sadly, I didn't do too well on my diet today. I did well this morning:
I ate half my usuall breakfast
2 hours later I had an apple
2 hours later I had a microwaveable single-serving pizza
2 hours later i had a banana
2 hours later I had an apple
and finally, about 3 hours later, I had a Lean Cuisine.
Unfortunately, I was still quite hungry afterwards, and I had 3 scoops of ice cream.

Now I feel guilty.
I skipped the gym after I got a phone call that took me 30 miles in the opposite direction of the gym, and didn't feel like driving all the way back out in rush hour. Not that you needed to know what I ate today, but whatever.

But tomorrow's another day. I'm weak-willed, and I'm fighting it all the time.

Oh, and according to doctors, healthy weight loss is 2-3 lbs. per week. Losing 6 pounds per week might be taxing on your body and your heart. Right now I'm just looking to lose 1 lb. If I look at the big picture, that will most likely scare me right off this wretched diet.

According to those "Are you obese" popups (have you seen those?) that measure your BMI, I have to lose about 100 lbs. I can't imagine being 120 lbs.! I think that's excessive, and if I keep thinking about that huge goal, I'll never get there. I've got no choice but to go one step at a time.

suffering_in_silence

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"Man is least himself when he talks in his own person. Give him a mask and he'll tell you the truth." -- Oscar Wilde