I just wanted to get some opinions on this. I am obese... 270 lbs at 5'3". I really really really want to lose weight. I NEED to lose it. I want to feel and look better than I do right now. It is reeking havoc on my self esteem and my physical health. I know what I should be doing. But I just can't seem to stop overeating. Friday night, I ate a whole pizza. Granted it was a small, but it was still way more than I should need to eat. But I just wanted it. I felt like an animal.... it was like primal instincts taking over. And I still wanted more after it was gone. Then, last night, I had some cereal for dinner, which filled me up. But it took all the energy I had not to keep eating and eating. I finally settled for some carrots and ranch and a slim fast to kill the sweet cravings. But then today its been the same way. If there was food around me, I would be stuffing myself. Why am I this way? It's painful. How do I turn it off? I've always been big, and I've always needed to diet... but I've never been able to. Its very hard to explain and very hard to deal with. Any tips from anyone? I am in desperate need of some help. Do I need to lock up all the food in my house and give my husband the key so I wont gorge? Thanks.
I don't have any tips but I understand what you are saying. For me it is my drug of choice. I think that's the definition that our current society's can understand the concept of the mental process that I go through. Addiction is addiction. I have a friend who's a shopping addict and it's the same with her. If she finds a shirt she likes that's available in 5 colors, she HAS to have all 5. That's me with food. I know I only need 1 of something but to be completely satisfied I need 5...or 6 ...or whatever. Primal is a good word to describe it. Reason goes out the window. I'm lucky. It isn't a daily issue but once or twice a month. But it keeps me fat.
I have no clue how to address the issue or I wouldn't be struggling. But you are not alone. It may not help. But you are not alone.
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Hey, I was almost GLAD to see your post because I do feel the same way. I am 5'3" and edging 250. I have been heavy my whole life. As a child, I ate cause no one was there, nothing to do. I was lazy and to cure the boredom and lonliness, I ate. As I got older, it got worse. Now, at 30 i am scared to death. I notice more and more that I will eat till its gone. For instance, the other day, I bought 2 garlic cheese pizzas (my fave) and thought I would eat a few pieces....yeah right! I hate a whole one just on the way home from where I bought it. Then, the rest was gone by the end of the day. Not because I was hungry but because I just wanted it.
I dont have any great ideas but I know that for me, I KNOW I have an eating disorder. I used to use drugs very heavily years ago....this is so much worse, because deep inside I never LIKED the drugs, but i LOVE food. I am having gastric bypass on march 2nd. I hope that this will help me in seeing the me that I know is screaming to get out of this fat body. Maybe if KNOWING that many of these foods that have gotten me so fat will make me soooo sick, I will not eat them. I daily work on what bothers me, and I will continue to work on it. I have an appointment next week with a therapist, and I know that somewhere there are issues that I need to address. I would suggest that - look inside yourself and decide what it is that you are covering up. I think I just do it cause I am depressed. I am alone with 2 young children, and their dad doesnt give a crap about them. I have so much anger, resentment, guilt, pain, etc pent up that I think if I eat, it will stuff it all back down. Who knows...
I hope that you are able to gain some insight somewhere, and get the help you may need. Remember, we are here......
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My name is Sue , I'm 40-something & have been 50-100+ pounds overwieght for 25+ years. I programmed myself to use food the same way a smoker might smoke. STRESS, aggitated, upset & sometimes nerves. (you know the drill)w/o a doubt - I have an eating disorder because like MANY others, I have trouble to GREAT trouble controling it, if at all.
Society doesn't HELP, in my honest opinion. They'd UNDERSTAND if an X-smoker chose not to work in a cigarrette factory. (not meaning to put words in anyones mouth here~>) But fat people are looked at as spineless, w/ NO willpower, lazy, etc. Unlike an X-smoker, I'll have to deal with the thing I have the addiction to for the REST of MY LIFE. Where the X-smoker can CHOOSE not to be around cigs. The seriously overweight don't HAVE that kind of CHOICE.
I've had esteem issues all my life, due to a VERY negative parent. One day, I hope to re-program myself and how I think about food. Because, I think H-U-G-E lifestyle CHANGE(s) are the only way I'm gonna beat the demon that I allow to drive MY bus.
I'm 5'8" weighing 255 pounds. Recently I've GAINED 10 #'s being put on thyroid meds.
Pleasantly plump (180ish) is a far away dream
Weighing LESS than what my drivers lic says (220) would be NICE
And even getting to where I was 10 years ago, (235) would be pleasing
Just wanted you to KNOW, we're NOT alone! You're NOT alone in your struggles w/ food & weight.
jumping UP + down THRILLED someone is attempting to tackle this subject , , ,
My name is Sue , I'm 40-something & have been 50-100+ pounds overwieght for 25+ years. I programmed myself to use food the same way a smoker might smoke. STRESS, aggitated, upset & sometimes nerves. (you know the drill)w/o a doubt - I have an eating disorder because like MANY others, I have trouble to GREAT trouble controling it, if at all.
Society doesn't HELP, in my honest opinion. They'd UNDERSTAND if an X-smoker chose not to work in a cigarrette factory. (not meaning to put words in anyones mouth here~>) But fat people are looked at as spineless, w/ NO willpower, lazy, etc. Unlike an X-smoker, I'll have to deal with the thing I have the addiction to for the REST of MY LIFE. Where the X-smoker can CHOOSE not to be around cigs. The seriously overweight don't HAVE that kind of CHOICE.
I've had esteem issues all my life, due to a VERY negative parent. One day, I hope to re-program myself and how I think about food. Because, I think H-U-G-E lifestyle CHANGE(s) are the only way I'm gonna beat the demon that I allow to drive MY bus.
I'm 5'8" weighing 255 pounds. Recently I've GAINED 10 #'s being put on thyroid meds.
Pleasantly plump (180ish) is a far away dream
Weighing LESS than what my drivers lic says (220) would be NICE
And even getting to where I was 10 years ago, (235) would be pleasing
Just wanted you to KNOW, we're NOT alone! You're NOT alone in your struggles w/ food & weight.
***hugs***
~Sue
Hi Sue,
Just wanted to respond to you, since I read a lot of "me" in your post. I'm 32, been fat my entire life. Gained, lost, starved, stuffed, etc. etc......I have an eating disorder as well, but I didn't recognize it as one until this past year. Oddly enough, my oldest sister has anorexia......people are shocked to find out that we're sisters!
Anyway, last summer I picked up a book from Geneen Roth. Then I went on to pick up EVERY book she had, about 8 total. If you're struggling with overeating, bingeing, etc.....she's a great author. She struggled (and continues to struggle) with it, so it's such a relief to read her words - it's almost like she's taken the words right out of your mouth.
If you're not interested, that's cool. But I highly recommend her books. They've been a lifesaver for me. Good luck!
Do I have an eating disorder? 
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, I'm 40-something & have been 50-100+ pounds overwieght for 25+ years. I programmed myself to use food the same way a smoker might smoke. STRESS, aggitated, upset & sometimes nerves. (you know the drill) w/o a doubt - I have an eating disorder because like MANY others, I have trouble to GREAT trouble controling it, if at all.
being put on thyroid meds. 
I'm 32, been fat my entire life. Gained, lost, starved, stuffed, etc. etc......I have an eating disorder as well, but I didn't recognize it as one until this past year. Oddly enough, my oldest sister has anorexia......people are shocked to find out that we're sisters! 
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