My health, physical and emotional, was severely compromised by my obesity. I hardly ever left my bedroom anymore because standing or walking for any length of time gave me severe back, leg and foot pain so I had stopped doing any household chores or grocery shopping for my family. If I absolutely had to get a new pair of pants or a top I bought two of the biggest size I could find and then sewed them together. My social life didn't exist, I often had trouble leaving the house to pick up my kids from school. I had severe depression, my husband's and my sex life was almost non-existant and not fulfilling when we did have sex. I had migraine headaches, sleep apnea, snoring, aching arms and shoulders from sleeping on them. I was reluctant to have baths because it was such a chore to get in and out of the bath and I couldn't stand long enough for a shower. I couldn't reach to wash my genitals anymore and I couldn't reach to insert tampons. Sorry if I'm getting pretty graphic here but this is where I was at. I was sitting up in bed one day watching tv (while my family carried on upstairs without me) and I had the sudden thought "my life is over - I'm 40 years old and my life is over". And right then I decided to pursue the idea of stomach stapling surgery because that was my only option. I hope this response helps you, it sounds like you're suffering too although you say that still can and do exercise and that's good. Keep me informed, I understand what you're going through.
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