could i have ocd??? not sure...
today, i started feeling very compelled to do things again... and again... strangely enough just after seeing last nights episode of Scrubs!! LOL! but now the more i think about it, the more i realize i seem to have had VERY minor symptoms of ocd for years! if im reading, i find a long-ish word (several syllables) i count the syllables and then start analyzing if there could be more syllables than i counted - like if i read curriculum or seomthing, cur-ric-u-lum... c-ur-ric-u-lum?? cur-ri-cul-lum??? i start sorta re-arranging it.. that ones not so common... and a little while ago i did a few situps because im goin to florida on friday and wanna look good LOL, no i actually do them every day but this is the first time this has happened: i did 10 situps... then felt like it wasnt enough, and did 10 more... im still feeling it but right now am able to ignore it somewhat.. that i have to do more.. and more.. and i was giving in but now im really thinkin it mite be ocd.. because im not doing the situps im feeling this kinda tingly/tightness right below my ribs - where the muscles are - and NOT from doing them, its not pain like after a workout. i keep looking over at where i was doing them... etc... and if im singing or listening to music, the song gets stuck in my head for HOURS sometimes DAYS and until i sing another song several times, that ones stuck in my head for awhile, and its just this ongoing chain... though at times there not stuck... its weird... i always feel like theres someone in the room with me, behind me, etc.. and at night im afraid to go into another room becasue its dark and idk what will be there, or to look out the window - something could be right there!! its not REALLY interferring with my life wchich i know is a leading factor in it but its frustrating like it stops me from concentrating on my hw or the teahcer in school b/c theres a song in my head or the syllable thing - the song is the most common and the situp thing... i have no clue lol but if anyone has any comments plz answer!!
*~*~*Danielle*~*~*
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