Just wondering - Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD) Message Board

ontheway · 05-18-2004, 05:19 PM

I was wondering if any of you have the problem with OCD with the doubting, for example I did talked to someone but then i get the thought that i might have touch the person ( not in a bad way ) and i know I didn't but the thought is strong and it makes me believe I have, has anyone experience this before ? It's ratter frustrating to me I feel like I have done something when I havent and these intrusive thoughts just get the best of me and I really am sick of this and want to stop it and change my attitude and make a good change in my thinking but its a battle inside my mind it really stinks so bad when my own mind works against me takes most of the Joy out of life. saying that i feel what Joy ? there is none except my boyfriend ( FroboyPeaceGuy) and even with him the thoughts come and has i tell him about it I feel i sound crazy maybe i am for falling for these stupid lies OCD feeds me but this is trying to take away all the work i have made to get just a " little " better and I dont want to lose that but fighting for it always a will OCD win today or will I win today which one and usually OCD seems stronger when in reality its just seems to be strong when its bullcrap all of these negative thoughts are bullcrap i want some peace not for just moments al to i do enjoy the moments of peace i get just want it to last longer, anyways thanks for listening again God bless

hayley0610 · 05-18-2004, 07:45 PM

i think i know what you mean but i never pay much attn cause i figure if i did do the thing im worried of doing i cant change it! what i do once in a while is when i get off the phone i wonder if i said bye before i hung up with the person and then i think about it to try and see if i remember doing it or not....hope thats what u mean.

ontheway · 05-21-2004, 06:11 PM

hey thanks for responding

I just meant that when I do something my mind makes me feel has if i done more when I know i have not, sort of like if your driving and OCD makes u feel you hit someone when you know you didnt yet you still are going over it and your head its sort of like that OCD makes me feel like i've done things that i know i have not but the thought is too strong It's hard for me because I have such a tuff time overcoming some of these thoughts I love my boyfriend ( FroBoyPeaceGuy) so much and i get all these negative thoughts and i tell him and i feel crazy i feel like it puts a strain on my relationship ratter it does or not and i feel like im more of a burden to him because i always am dealing with something that is bringing me down and cant continue to take this anymore OCD has taken my life for so many years now and my life is mostly me dealing or trying to deal with OCD very frustrating to have to live like this I'm not in control of my life like i should be when in reality i have control but my mind worsk against me so i dont feel like im in control hate these feelings insiode me dealing with all this OCD crap and thats just what it is , thanks again for replying to my post God bless ya