Obsessed with appearance - Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD) Message Board

melly88888 · 05-23-2004, 07:00 PM

I have not been diagnosed with OCD but I think I may have it. I am in my late 20's and I worry about how I look constantly. I have a hard time maintaining relationships b/c I never feel like I am pretty enough. I have had lots of short term relationships b/c many people find me attractive physically but it is me that does not. I do not watch t.v. or look at beauty magazines b/c it depresses me.

I always worry what people think of me and if they like me. I worry so much sometimes it prevents me from meeting new people and my job demands meeting new people constantly. I have a hard time relaxing b/c I worry so much. I have to have a surgery done soon and I have worried and cried so much about having it done. Does anyone else have symptoms like this and is this constant worrying and what if's related to OCD. I worry so much that I am not perfect and how to fix it that I don't get anything else done. I am seeing a psychiatrist this week. I don't want to be like this anymore. Is there aything that has helped others. Thanks so much for any advice. I have been dealing with this for way too long.

crazygrl777 · 05-23-2004, 07:24 PM

I feel your pain. I think the same way you do, and I have for years. I am almost 23 years old and I have never liked myself, ever. I feel like I am this huge, fat, ugly person that no one should like. I do the opposite of you though, I feel like I am compelled to look at magazines and stuff. I stare at pictures of women, there legs, stomach, face, everything. I stare at people walking on the street. I hate looking in the mirror. I look at pictures of myself and I feel like the person in the picture is pretty, but I feel like that person isn't me. I'm sure I am not making any sense. I don't think my stuff is as progressed as yours, but it does suck.

melly88888 · 05-23-2004, 07:59 PM

Thanks for your reply. It makes me feel better there is someone out there dealing with the same thing. I have gone through cycles where sometimes it bothers me other times it doesn't. I hate looking at pictures of me too and I look at the pretty girl in the picture and feel that was just a good day or it really isn't me. I know it sounds crazy.

FroBoyPeaceGuy · 05-24-2004, 01:38 AM

Sup Melly88888,

First off, I bet you are an absolutely gorgous lady.

I personally do not have OCD, but my gf does (ontheway). I have heard her say she is not pretty so many times, and the thing is that she is an absolute beautiful girl, but some days she doesn't see what I am talking about. I believe that everyone of us is beautiful regardless of what others say.

Jesus said "We all come short in the glory of God!",which means no one is perfect, cept Jesus himself, so why do some ppl try to make others feel ugly when the reality is that to millions, maybe even billions of ppl, that that one person is an equal. I learned long ago that beauty is in the eye of the beholder, so why should anyone judge.

I believe you came the right place for some advice. The folks here are all family and will help you, all you needed to do was ask. I am always looking for more friends. I believe friends are FOREVER!!! [ removed ] As always, God Bless!!!!

melly88888 · 05-24-2004, 08:01 AM

Thanks so much for your kind words.