Hello Obsessor,
I persoanally do not have OCD, but my gf who also posts (ontheway) has this disorder. One of her meds is the Risperdal, and she says it helps a lil, but the thing she doesn't like is the side effect (not in everyone) is that lactation occurs. She did not have this happening until she started w/ this medicine. I think yoi have a stronger dosage than she does. I heard some meds can counteract some of the wierd side effects that happen in the body.
As for the fear of death, if you are in good health cept for the OCD thoughts, then trust in yourself to live a long prosperous life. I've visited this board for a lil while now, and I have seen so much love these folks have for one another. It is like a big family in here, always helping one another. [
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