Help Me!!!!!!!!!!! - Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD) Message Board

ChrisO · 05-25-2004, 11:18 PM

Hi all, i would just like to know what kind of medicines would be effective for me , i have been suffering with ocd my whole life and never treated it , i am now 21, i quit my job (due to gay ocd and other thoughts) i now feel i am at the end of my rope sitting here in my lonely room with nothing to do but sit and have obsessional thoughts haunt and attack me all day long, i broke down 3 weeks ago when i finally got a job, i was so happy i was working concrete with my brother and my bestfriend, on our third day working we were driving in the truck and i was thinking about how i missed my brother because he had been gone previously for 7 months and i got him a job working with me as soon as he got home anyway i was all happy and good with my life, when ocd started to take over i got this thought that i am attracted to my brother, and WHAM! it hit me and i couldnt forget about it it attacked my mind every other 30 seconds through that day, then a few days after also it made me start not going to work (missed 9 days in a row till i got fired) because that was the only thought going through my head all day , then it lead to harming people , (picturing hurting people , and molesting children and the whole bit) and my mind has not rested since, now all day i have weird little tics and obsessions, and i always have one main obsession that bothers me the worst and when that one is in progress i act like its 4 real, and the others are ocd cause they only come briefly, i dont know i cant stop thinking about the smae thoughts over and over and over all day everyday, i dread waking up because i know thats all i am gonna do is have the same thoughts all day and i dont know its not ending yet and i need to know if this will ever end and what i should do HELP ME
i have lost all my motivation for working out , listening to music and everything i used to enjoy i dont know what to do. I am also on a waiting list for a psychiatrist, i live in Ontario, Canada and i need some meds sooner than i see a psych to help relieve me
WHAT SHOULD I DO>??!??

CHRIS
PS before this recent attack i have been pretty fine, lots of friends, girlfriends, job, i was able to have fun at partys now it feels my brain is over.

thanks

jocook26 · 05-25-2004, 11:59 PM

chris,

i know haw hard this is and feel for you but one thing you HAVE to remember is that you are a good person and not some deranged molester...If oyu were you wouldn't even worry about it....It bothers you because you are a sensitive ..caring perosn and all the bad things that happen in the world are alot for you to take. YOU HAVE to believe in yourself. If you were a horrible person then all these bad thoughts wouldn't bother you. Its like one bad weird thought comes in to your head that most people would dismess but scares you to death. Have fauth that you are good and this cruel world is a lot for a good person to take. I have ahd OCD for 15 years and trust me when I say it is worth going through for the good times...and there will be good times again....take medicine...Prozac have enabled me to live a halfway normal existance ...which is great ..because who wants to be normal???We are sensitive breed and FEAR and Doubt is what OCD lives for...don't give it the satisfaction..DON'T BE AFRAID..TRUST YOURSELF....
JOANNE

auntchilada · 05-26-2004, 09:20 PM

How long do you have to wait to see a doctor? I am sorry you are suffering so much. It really stinks! You are NOT a bad person, it's only the OCD. Next time, try to rise above your OCD and go to work just to spite it. Facing it will help and the more you adjust your life and stop doing things because of OCD, the more powerful the OCD will become. Hang in there!!!!

ChrisO · 05-26-2004, 09:46 PM

I guess i am on a long waiting referral list to see a doc, today i gave into myself and am standing at the point where i am saying to myself i dont know who i am so why worry about anything, anyone know anything about marijuana, cocaine and ocd, would smoking marijuana all day everyday make my ocd worse ? anyway thanks for all the help i think i had a bit of a better day today, i just want to know who i am.

Chris