struggling with sexual thoughts - Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD) Message Board

jianlian · 06-02-2004, 06:20 PM

i'm new here and i'll start with a brief intro on my story (i'm male, 21):

about 5 months ago I realised I had OCD, and in doing so, I could trace it back many years in my life. But only in recent 3 years has it been extremely hard to deal with. However, in understanding my problem i've been able to cope quite well. I still get the obsessive thoughts throughout the day and this can sometimes cause great amounts of anxiety, but I know where it comes from now and i feel much happier.

However... this is one aspect of my OCD (or is it??) that SCARES me. They are "bad" sexual thoughts (i dont want to describe), and they are NOT GAY thoughts. Taking the approach of accepting these thoughts, I let myself have those thoughts and focus on them. Sometimes I will feel myself getting 100% turned on by these thoughts, and I will get an erection. It comes to a point where i don't feel threatened by the thoughts anymore, and I wonder if I really like all those "bad" sexual things.

Does anyone have any thoughts or experience to share? thanks.

FroBoyPeaceGuy · 06-03-2004, 12:45 AM

Hi jianlian,

This seems like an episode I used to be dealing with. I went thru the thoughts of extreme XXX rated stuff. I think the way it seemed to have gone away is "torturing myself". Not physical torture, but mental torture. I have a homegirl who I do not consider attractive that is a majorly bickering person that I learned to work my mind with to "torture" these thoughts away. I learned that if I put my XXX thought into the scenerio w/ this person. Not in person, but in mind and w/ "testing" these thoughts w/ questions.

As for your thoughts in general, it's human nature. I will say a prayer for you if you like for a future of less extreme thoughts. God Bless You Always

jianlian · 06-03-2004, 06:23 PM

thanks for the words.

let me try to put down more of my thoughts. I don't try to resist or deny obssesive thoughts anymore because at this point i have realised it won't make them go away, and infact makes them worse. The thing that scares me about this is that I think, "what if this aspect is not caused by OCD? what if I am a pervert?". Sex is a hard issue because there are "good" (acceptable, normal) sexual thoughts and there are very bad ones. Whereas eg violent thoughts seem easier to understand, because I know I am not violent and don;t want to hurt people.

aprilmay · 06-05-2004, 02:26 AM

if you were a pervert you would enjoy these thoughts and try to think about them... the only reason you got an erection is cause you were scared to get one and your mind tricked you

jianlian · 06-08-2004, 04:40 PM

does anyone else have other suggestions on how to deal with this problem?

it is very, very hard for me