TiredofOCD

I have OCD, and my main symptom is fear of germs. I get bad anxiety over this. I have two kids and my germ phobia started after having my first child. I really feel that everything and everyone is contaminated outside of my home. I wanted to know if anyone has ever been in a situation where your OCD has kicked in so bad that you will do anything to get out of the situation?? Tonight we were at a barbeque. I didn't feel like the food was "clean" so I started to literally panic. I needed out fast.. so I made up a story that my neighbor left a message on my cell phone that my door was left open at home. I don't know where I got that idea and I hated lying, but couldn't come up with a good excuse to get out of there fast. So now I feel like I'm crazy for having to do something so outrageous to free myself from my OCD. I have been to dr's, I have been on drugs. Nothing helps. What kind of life is this????? I feel like I would rather have no friends, than to have friends that don't meet my "standards" of cleanliness, because atleast then I don't have to worry.