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well i noticed something this last week. My meds are helping incredibly as far as my ocd and worrying but i noticed that when i leave the house to do anything, thats when my ocd comes in full force! like if im shopping ill have to grab a certain item from shelf but at home i can grab anything but if im at home and if i know im about to leave the house my ocd will kick in at home (if i have to grab something from a shelf at home) i tell myself wherever i am about to go to if i grab that certain item it will be a good time and no problems will arise. hope this makes sense. it appears to be somewhat of a link as far as me leaving my home for whatever reason. im wondering if im a bit afraid to leave my house, not afraid enough though to stay at home indoors! theres no prevention as far as leaving my home for me. i just get awful butterflies and seem to be no as ocd when im at home. If im at a friends house i have to use a certain cup of theirs or i ocd about something bad happening that night...anyone else have this?
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