First time poster, longtime OCD: I need help..
I'm a 21 year old male, from Tennessee. I'm a first time poster, but have battled OCD for 8 years. It was triggered by a freak out over germs.
This morning, I awoke, to use the restroom. Lately, I have had this thing where when talking to someone my intrusive thoughts in my head, will say to this particular person, "They can go to hell." Well, this morning I got up, and herd some chatter from my parents. Somewhere along my barely awakened state, my OCD decided that "I'm not Satan, so I can't bring people to hell", which is where it hit the fan.
Whereas, normally, I would pray a pretty routine prayer to dismiss those thoughts, my OCD took heed to that thought, saying that what if I am Satan. As with most OCD thoughts, I know it is a huge lie, but the anxiety and racing thoughts are still hard to shake. Anyone have something like this before, and if so, any help you can give me on this particular form of OCD?