All my life I've been plagued by it but wasn't diagnosed with it until I was in 8th grad which i'm going into 12th so it was 4 years ago. There was an event that happened, and I went to look at it on aol news, and they had links to something similar to it. I checked that out and found out a lot of stuff and it was bugging me badly. I couldn't stop, all I could remember was the victims and killers names, I still do that to this day. Another thing, My OCD gives me depression and Anxiety, or my Anxiety causes ocd and depression, something like that, anyway I've played sports all my life, but The OCD made me scared to even do that, it was a mental thing, I was always thinking gosh we have 3 hours of practice like this everyday, and I would worry about how much we were going to run or if we were and it would ruin the fun in it. I'm afaid to get a job at a body shop because i'm afraid of failure, I afraid to join the armed forces because I might not make it through basic training and be an embarrassment to my family, or that I might make it and I'm afraid I'll want to quit but I can't so i'm scared. I can't enjoy life i'm always worrying even with medicine, I'll have fun for a little bit but then I start to think about when I have to go back to work, or I have to go home soon or school starts soon, then I'm worryin about what i'm going to do in life and it keeps me up all night. sorry to make this so long I just have so many questions, and I'm afraid I'll never get over my OCD. I stay up all night then I don't know I get depressed like right now, I mean my brother came home from college for summer and he's probably not going to be home this long again and it's just upsetting, not to mention I have to choose a college soon. I'm confused and lost.