Constant fear of being dumped/cheated on
Now I know this is all OCD. I know without a doubt.
I've been dating this girl for about 2.5 months now and everything has been great. There were 2 times where I've felt uncomfortable, thinking she was acting rude and maybe I got a little jealous.
That set my mind off and I was getting sick over the fact that I thought she was cheating on me with one of my friends because they had been talking. I mean, she really gave no sign of this behaviour.
But I was mentally screwed and worried as hell for about a week. No wonder I feel like I'm getting ulcers.
Thing is I felt the same exact way about cancer, aids, thinking I was gay, and thinking I was a schizoid. All of these things flooded my mind with absurd, irrational thoughts that have weighed me down and destroyed relationships.
Now I play out scenario after scenario of her doing things behind my back and the thoughts just go on and go on. Of course, I do feel my past creeping back on me like poison ivy.
I can see how OCD ruins relationships. I'm doing my best to take steps back and keep my mouth shut. But any advice is appreciated.