I know how you guys feel
It kills me cause I'll have good months, and my eyelashes will grow back partially, and I'll be so happy, but then it's like, I noticed it, and late at night (I'm an insomniac) I always end up pulling them out again so I can calm down enough to sleep...and when I'm bored..and when I'm feeling really freaked, my eyes just itches where the lashes are and I keep thinking, "If I pull THIS one out it will stop." but it just keeps going and going until they're all gone. I can't explain it. I hate doing it, but it doesn't completely occur to me when I'm doing it. All I know is that it stops itching, and I feel really bad and terrible afterwards. I haven't had eyelashes since I was 9 or 10, about 5 or 6 years..I'm worried I may never have any again.I can't put lotion or almond oil (Or something close to that, someone told me rubbing almond oil or something like that makes scalp hair grow back quicker and stop itching. I never tried it myself, since I only pull out maybe 1 scalp hair a month.) on them, which sucks cause it's all anyone talks about. I do other things to occupy my hands all the times, but the itching and irritation becomes unbearable and I just HAVE to pull them all out..I wish there was a cure for this, I really do. Nobody seems to get it, they all think I do it for the attention or they think I can just drop it like a regular bad habit, but most of us know it surely isn't NEAR that easy. If anyone knows how to help us eyelash pickers out here then by god I'm ready for any advice. Seriously. I've tried everything. I mean, I'm not even depressed or anything! It's just the need to do it, and I like the spacey relaxation I go into when I'm doing it. I just hate the feeling I have afterwards, like I'm slowly pulling myself apart and making myself uglier every time.
Good luck to all you other Trichsters out there, and hopefully someone can help us one day