Hello all, I hate to admit it but I have OCD. I recently began having intrusive thoughts that take up my day and make me feel miserable and they don't go away. It seems amazing to me that one thought can start a chain of events that lead to other thoughts, and it just gets bigger and bigger till you begin to obsess, and with me it's just about anything, I can't stand to hear my heart beat because I am afraid it is going to stop, so I shake my leg violently so I can pay attention to something else. All my life I can remember having some weird obbsession, there was a time when I thought that when my mom dropped me off at school she would never come back for me, so I would go to the nurses ofice and pretend to be sick so my mom would come pick me up. when I was about 13 I thought because I looked at a dirty magazine that I was a lesbian and being Catholic as well added to my guilt. Those are just few of my problems. My mother says that I overreact and that I do not have OCD. I belived her for a while, but as you know anyone who has it knows what it feels like to be trapped in your mind like a prison, trying to seperate the truth from the false, and at the same time waking up at 6 in the morning to try and live a normal life and work. And with me the second I flip my eyes open the thoughts come flooding back in. Sleep being the only escape at times. I took me a while to realize I have a problem, and it's a little easier when you realize you are not the only one, so with all of you I sympathize, my doctor put me on Zoloft I started today at 100mg's so we'll see, anyone else been treated by Zoloft for OCD? thank you all for listening and write back if you want, it is always nice to talk to people who understand you.
Amy
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