I haven't tried hypnosis, and I don't believe it would work anyway. I do however ruminate obsessively about God, which in turn triggers blasphemous thoughts. That being said, I think it's important to be mindful of God. It's good to ponder and theorize about the mechanisms of creation. I sometimes try to picture God in His state of incomprehensible Holiness and perfection, effortlessly overseeing every thought, feeling and action of every living creature in the universe. No particle escapes His attention. Planets move at His whim. Yet, with all this activity going on on earth and in the heavens, I know we are His absolute top priority.
We are supposed to be ever-mindful of God. I believe these ruminations, no matter how obsessive they may seem, are a form of worship and adoration to our Heavenly Father.
Well, there I go again

Ihope you feel a little better. God bless you!