Im going through a hard time, with repetive gay thoughts, questioning myself if i am gay, telling myself i am gay, and am obsessed with wondering whether i am or not, but i still am attracted to woman i know i am, but i look at woman differently now since this gay ocd has pretty much taken over my mind, i have lots of friends, and i am contstantly thinking about stuff when i just want to hang out with them and have a godo time, i also get these thoughts that i want to kill someone and and it comes and goes the thought, its so bothersome to my daily life, lately ive been gettign back into bodybuilding and i have this thought tellign me i cant whenever i am workign out its so hard to explain how do i beat this way of thinking do i take CBT , can anyway gice me some advice.
PS i dont feel good on medications cause of the side effects , so iprefer to tackle this problem on my own, can i ever feel happy again????
Re: whats wrong with my head and how do i get better
let me tell you i feel you bud, i have no (*(&$@(& clue what the hell this is or why it started but i feel super wierd in society, anyone feel as if they believe the constant nagging that this is, its not like a compulsion where you can just walk away when i was 12 i thought all my food and drinks were contaminated then i had lots of urges to do compulsions, no symptoms for 4 years, now doubts about my sexuality??? never had a **** fantasy in my life but all of a sudden i feel like my body wants to be with guys??!?!?!?! i love my girlfriend but i keep searching for emotions whenever i see her, i have to see if i get aroused by just staring at her, of course with all the anxiety that i have its normal not to be able to be aroused by just looking at her but why do i feel like im lying, i havent been to work in 5 days, i havent hung out with my friends for some reason, and when the anziety leaves me alone, i feel like ive accepted that im gay when I know that I am not, but how do you know the difference between this and denial??? theres a fine line, but i dont know, im scared and i want to be happy again dont know what to do