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hiya
i dont know whether or not this is meant to be here but ill ask anyway

if someone shows the least bit of interest in me i get attached to them
when i first started working at the company im with now
there was this guy who started showing me interest on the first day
for some reason no matter how hard i tried to resist it we ended up together
he was terrible to be but i stayed with him anyway
after 2 and a half years we finally went our seperate ways (kinda)

i was at this pool hall one night and this guy came up to me and started talkin to me
he seemed interested but as much as i tried to not like him it changed nothing
he was a really nice guy, and i couldnt believe that someone like that actually liked me

he ended up having schizophrenia

so we broke up after a week or so

there is this guy who says hi to me sometimes
he works at the local service station
i dun find him attractive or anyhting
but i guess coz he is talking to me or shows some interet in wanting to talk to me
i cant stop wanting to see him


ive been going to a therapist for about 6 weeks
and am working through some of my problems

i ahve a feelingthat this is all becuase of a need to be liked
it always seems to backfire

its starting to become an ovbsession with me because i end up going to places where i know he will be
or hope that he is there

its driving me nuts
coz i dun like him
and i cant stop it

there is also this guy n the net who i like a lot
i dunno what he looks like, but it dun matter coz we are just mates

if hes not on the net i start to worry that something is wrong
or he doesnt like me anymore or something

i guess i just ahve some issues, but dun know how to get over them, or tell people about it


i seem to have this obsession with people who are REALLY bad for me

anyhow as i said i dont know whether this is the right board for this
but thought i would ask the question

sorry for this being so long
once i start writing i cant stop

anyhow
thatnks for listening