oh yeah, I KNOW that too...
mine started in highschool. and september 11th didn't help I think it gave an already worry wort, post tromatic stress, everytime a plane drives over my head, I think its a bomb. I'm jsut afraid of people. at night I can't see out the window, and I think someone is going to shoot me. So I don't stand anywhere near the wondow. I'm afraid of people, but I useto be afraid of death.
now I got this in highschool when I was 18 and learnt phamtomphobic. afraid of death. I believed it like you do, because my life flashed before my eyes. and everything would get dark, and I though, what happens when I did? nothing... it will go dark, the world will continue and I wont be there to see it, becasu it is something real, the world is not jsut for me. will this wall here, be here past my death?.... all these thoughts.
but then I had a one to one with God, (crazy people can expearince cool things
) he said something to me and it made me realize that I am nothing. I became a christian, because I realized that death with out God is hell, its Nothing, darkness, and I worked hard as a christian. and now I'm not afraid to die, becasue this world is a terribul place, but that is because it is run by crazy humans, and humans are terribul people. and as a christian, I feel normal, I live in a nice house with a man I love, I hope to have children one day, got a good job, I have a few little problems, but I deal, and I know I need God in my life at all times, not jsut when things are bad. and I try to help who i can.
no my mother is really dying, and I have to be there for her, and she is afraid of death, something I never seen in her before. and I told her I was once afraid of death too, and she remenbers that, she usto talk to me like lifter123 "your going to die, don't worry about it" and now she is in the same place. and she is worried
so i think its about growing, even if you are younger then someone elts when they expearince this stuff we will all have to face death one day and the question that people have had since the beginning of time, is where are we going after death? maybe you are expearinceing this while you are young, because God has a plan, to have you there, to help someone close to you when they are in need. I don't know that was me, God has a different plan for you.
and I also agree with Alex.