Kathrin74

Hello!

Yes, I believe that, OCD usually happens to the things somebody really cares about. A loving mother might have thoughts of hurting her child, or as you say, a very religious person might have unwanted blasphemus thoughts. I think that is one of the worst things about OCD! It knows how to push our buttons...

You say you know somehwere deep inside that those thoughts are just OCD. Let me assure you, it certainly sounds like OCD to me! So those thoughts that are telling you it's just OCD, those thoughts are right!
Just knowing that, and separating the OCD from yourself ("it's not me thinking those thoughts, it's the OCD" can already be a powerful first step toward feeling better.
I don't know if you are in therapy, and/or taking medication? Meds can sometimes make it easier to let go of the thoughts... to just let them happen. But even without medication, can you try to do that and whenever the thoughts pop up just tell yourself "it's just OCD"? And try (I know it's hard) not to worry about them, just watch them come and go, let them be, let them go by like a parade... knowing that right now they are disturbing and may even prevent you from really enjoying those things you like, but after a while (when you don't let them worry you anymore) they will get less and less and finally go away!
It is actually by trying to make them go away that you make them stronger. So the trick is NOT trying to make them go away... just observe them, accept them, not worry about them... just a necessary evil for now, that will fade away again.

Kathrin