shikyh

I have been in ocd remission for awhile until now. I have most ocd symtoms. The handwashing, checking...I can handle pretty well. Its the unwanted thoughts. You all know they just hop in from now where and control your life. The thoughts are back and they are horrible. I found out my boyfriend has been chatting in gay chat rooms. We talked it through and I know he isn't gay(belive it or not) I still have my doubts. He is asking me to do things sexually with him that I have never thought of doing. I feel immoral when I even think of doing them. I am scared if I don't he will go back to the chat rooms. The things we talk about has drove me "crazy" It is putting me back into and ocd trap. All the thoughts are back... sexual, violent, social. I don't know what to do. I feel I am on the outside looking in on the world and I havent been this way for awhile and it upsets me so bad. People at work are saying, you don't look so good....are you ok?....whats wrong? I can't talk to anyone about this but him. I love him so much and our baby is only 7months old. He has begged me to stay with him and claims to love me so much. I don't think he understands what he has done to me mentally. Im depressed and scared. Any suggestions would be helpful.